Recipient No Longer Exists

Your invitation has been rescinded—

no justice

inside a.m.

Name stricken from the guest list just this


cos you don’t have a thing to wear.

My daughter asked me to email her the wedding guest list so she and her fiancé can finalize the count, and begin mailing invitations. I looked it over this morning to make sure I wasn’t missing anyone before hitting send.

I was missing someone.

I highlighted my mother’s name and address. And I cried. I hit delete. And I cried.

I cried yesterday, too. Nicole had selected the most beautiful wedding dress—she looks like an absolute doll in it. I took loads of photos of her standing on the pedestal before a three-way mirror. I was so excited, I attached the images to a text message.

Then I remembered my mother wouldn’t receive them.




  1. I still have Dad’s number and probably archived texts too, but I won’t go and read them tonight…

    Grieving is so heart wrenching, and so personal. I feel you so much. X

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