I wrote a novel about death, and how the tragedy impacts the dynamics of a dysfunctional family; a year and half after my book was published, my mother bumped her head, and she was dead.
Dead. Just six days following the birth of her granddaughter, Morgan. Now, a photograph of newborn Morgan being closely held against her grandma’s chest is proudly displayed in the living room of my sister’s house–a photograph I had snapped with my mobile phone. I took two pictures of my mother and Morgan with my phone, and a few others using my mother’s flip-phone, so she’d be able to show off her beautiful new grand-baby to her co-workers. My mother was downright fucking proud to be a grandma for the fifth time! And she was looking forward to years and years and years of love.
My mother had so much love to give…
“Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.”
My mother died, and life has beaten me black and blue with her absence–a plastic bag filled with the pulverized bones of the woman who carried me inside of her body takes up space cleared specially…
Tara and I filled a few keepsake urns. As for the rest of our mother, we will take her places she loved to visit, and leave bits of her behind.
I still can’t believe I don’t have a mother. It’s coming up on three months. But I know when it’s coming up on three years, I will feel the same blackness. I’m not special in this. Everyone knows this level of loss–or they will, eventually.
The real reason for this post is to tell you all that my life has changed, and the change will affect my presence on WordPress. I am going to be taking care of my niece three days a week–11-5, Wednesday thru Friday. So, my activity will be significantly decreased. Family is everything to me. Family means more to me than even my writing, and reading the writing of those whom I hold in high esteem. I ask that you all be patient with me. I will not forget you, nor will I forget myself as a writer. I will certainly keep up with my happily chosen responsibilities with SD, Blood into Ink, and Whisper and the Roar.
Peace to you all,