Take “Dishonesty” and Shove it

You had an emotional crisis, and I went to you despite my poor physical health because I love you endlessly. I slept on a blow up mattress for seven days straight, and pretended every morning that my Fibromyalgia was under control; I pretended that my right hip, so fucked up from Rheumatoid arthritis didn’t bother me that bad because you needed me, your best friend, to help you through this dark time in your life.

And now, you have the solid gold balls to tell me I’m not a good friend because you had to read online that I was publishing my novel; you think I should have told you beforehand. I tried to tell you beforehand, but you wouldn’t answer my phone calls, or acknowledge my text messages because you were too busy being pissed off that I didn’t need your advice. Funny, right? I could have used your advice, but you wouldn’t answer my calls. You’re the cause of this shit.

And I’m fucking pissed! I’m pissed you had the nerve to call me DISHONEST. Me. Dishonest. Have you met me? Are you motherfucking new here?

I’m not fucking sorry. Even if it means our friendship is over, I’m not fucking sorry. Because taking the blame would be dishonest.

 

 

29 thoughts on “Take “Dishonesty” and Shove it

  1. I recently lost a really close friend for an insane, really stupid reason. This doesn’t make sense at all. A true friend would just be happy for you. I’m sorry you’re going through it, It’s really hard and confusing ❤

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      1. Yes! It’s crazy… so many different emotions. Pretty much like grieving a death. I lost my friend. She claims to have PTSD (which I have, which was triggered, which was why I made a mistake, which is why I apologized, blah, blah blah), yet she couldn’t see past it and let it go. Twenty some years of friendship 😦

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    1. It’s awful isn’t it. I’ve been through it too…very confusing and frustrating. I’m sorry that you’ve gone through this too. I can only tell you that I eventually came to realise that I was better off without someone who didn’t value me or my friendship. It took ages for it to stop hurting though. X

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      1. It is SO confusing! I can’t believe that she is willing to let go of our friendship. I still think about it/her every day. I appreciate that someone else understands, but it’s sad that this happened to any of us. Love and peace to both of you ❤

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  2. I know how this all went down and, despite being YOUR pal, first & foremost, I was satisfied that you had done all you could. You are an excellent friend – I can vouch for that. But I know this was not easy thing for you to do and I’m genuinely sad for you both. ❤

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      1. But I just read this again and,

        “Me. Dishonest. Have you met me? Are you motherfucking new here?”

        and laughed out loud. Oh christ, how I want to print this whole thing onto a big poster and paste it up outside my ex friend’s house. What is WRONG with these deluded fuckers?

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