Fibromyalgia is kicking my ass today.

The lethargy attacking me today is at a level it hasn’t been in several months. It is five o’clock in the afternoon and I have just now managed to get up from the couch to do something useful. I consider writing useful. More than useful, actually. If not for writing, I would be constantly depressed.

Lethargy, for me, is a symptom  of Fibromyalgia. It is as frustrating to deal with as cognitive impairment, and on today’s scale, it exacerbates the physical pain so keenly I silently scream. Sometimes I cry out loud. Fuck, a lot of the time I cry out loud.

I was working at a hospital when I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. Many nurses scoffed when I told them what was wrong with me. I had suffered the chronic pain for a year before finally finding a doctor who could name the beast, and knew how to treat me.

I’m not going to list every single one of my symptoms here. Not now. I have dishes that need tending, and a shower with my name all over it. I just needed to tap out a few words about how I am feeling today, as the act is quite cathartic. Before I go though, let me say that if any readers out there suffer with Fibromyalgia, I feel you. Fibromyalgia is not a trash can diagnosis. It’s fucking real, and it fucking hurts. If any readers out there know someone suffering, be kind to them. Please, be kind.

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  1. Well yes, they directed him there and also because of myself, a long time sufferer of that disease, but he was cleared. Others think that it is unrelated in his case and are concentrating on this symmetry of pain, heat cold related symptoms and sensations and possible nerve damage. As you say it is still muddy waters even today.

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  2. My brother potentially could be suffering from this as he hovers between diagnosis and conflicting opinions, but the pain and other sounds the same but for some reason they are loathe to help or commit themselves. Keep your chin up or at least take that as it is meant.

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    1. Thank you. Fibromyalgia is still so misunderstood in the medical community, despite new studies and information. It seems many physicians are slow to embrace Fibromyalgia as a real disease. Has your brother seen a Rheumatologist? I do hope he finds someone who can diagnose him properly and help him understand what is happening to him.

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